A letter to my baby girl

Sophia, my baby girl, my little lovebug, my entire world--
I love you more than words could ever describe. You have been the most amazing gift. I have enjoyed watching you grow and learn. You have taught me more in your 2 years of life than I have learned in all of mine. You are going to be an amazing big sister. I can't wait to see you teach your brother all that you have learned and show him right from wrong. Mommy and daddy are so proud of you! Do whatever it is your heart tells you ..we will support you no matter what. I love you with everything in me.
love, mommy

Tomorrow could be the big day!

So I am 40 weeks and 4 days pregnant. Baby boy is just too cozy! Tomorrow morning I go in at 8am to have a balloon induction. I'm hoping that will jump start labor so I don't have to be medically induced. I am sooo excited. Also a little nervous. I'm more nervous about Sophia..how she will react to a new baby and not having mommy's full attention 24//7..I feel like I am kind of abandoning her :( although I know I'm not. I love her more than anything in the world..I can't imagine loving another person just as much. It doesn't seem real that he will be here in just a few short days. I feel like I still have weeks to go.

I'm ready to take this on. I am excited to start a new journey as a mommy of two!
Bring it on mother nature. :)

It has been FOREVER!

I knew I would be horrible at updating this!
As of today I am 36 weeks and 3 days (holy cow!)
I have gained a total of 30 lbs so far...yikes..
the baby is head down and ready to go! he has tons of fluids in there and has a strong heartbeat (and kick!)
i am seeing the doctor every week now. i am registered at the hospital. bag is packed! baby's clothes are all washed and waiting..now it's just a waiting game!..i'm so anxious to meet him. the closer the time gets the more excited i get! i cant wait for sophia to meet her little brother!

We also picked a name! we decided to not tell anyone until he is here because discussing names with certain people has only made me want to cut all ties.
**WARNING RANT AHEAD**
I'm pretty sure this child I am carrying is MINE (and Steven's of course) so why do "people" feel the need to put in their opinion on what his name should be. You are not carrying him, nourishing him, taking care of him and you certainly will not be raising him. so please shut your mouth and go away :)

rant over. I'm just tired of people telling us the names we liked were "gay", "stupid", blah blah blah. f-off please.

anyways. our little boy is gonna be here very soon with a very awesome name that his PARENTS picked especially for him!
we love you little guy <3

It's a...

BOY!!!

Yes! We have a wee wee folks! :)

Very excited to finally get this out to the world! It was extremely hard to hold in! 

Can't wait to meet the little guy!

 

18wks 5 days!

 

I am to the point when I look down I no longer see my toes! :P 

Doctor :)

Saw my doc yesterday again! After a very long vacation with my baby girl, I got to listen to the little one's heartbeat. 144! Very good!
I also gained 3 lbs in 4 weeks! ugh! But I do have a very funny story! So I had to pee very very bad, they weighed me and I asked if I could go pee and come back and reweigh. So I go, and when I weighed in again I lost 3 lbs!!! lol!!!
I'm also measuring right on schedule! :)
We are going to be announcing what the baby is this weekend :) Stay tuned!!

I know something you dont know :P

On May 4, we cheated and went to get a 3d u/s to find out the baby's sex... =D
But we aren't telling anyone til after my doctors appointment on the 27th. until then..
here are a few pics from the U/s

baby was very squished in there so we didnt get any good pictures of his/hers face. maybe next time.

my big ol' belly
16 weeks 5 days

 Nothing new has happened really. I have been feeling some movement. Every once in a while if I'm laying down I will feel kicking. I can't wait to announce what the baby is!!!!! AAHH!!

Went to the doctor

I am now in my second trimester! I went to the doctor a few days ago and gained 1.5 lbs..Baby looked AMAZING! It was kicking and moving sooo much! For as small as it is, there was soo much detail. I could see every finger oh man..I am so in love! It's crazy how your heart just grows to accommodate another child. I never thought I could ever love something as much as I do Sophia...so insane!

I got a picture but it's not a very good one. It's very hard to see.
My next doctor's visit is when we come back from Florida on May 20th..but we are going to do the gender predictor 3D thing the first week of May! :)

I decided I'm going to find out..it's just not fair to have my husband know and not me...lol

12 weeks!

Today I have reached 12 weeks! I can't believe how quick it has gone but still how slow. Does that make sense? :P
I go to the doctor next Thursday! It can't come soon enough! In the past few days, I have felt little flutters. I'm pretty sure it's baby from the way it feels :)
I found out a couple days ago one of my friends found out she too is pregnant! So exciting! I love having friends to share this time with that knows what I'm feeling without me having to say anything, because we are both feeling the same lol.

 

I thought for sure I would be in maternity pants by now but I am holding off..I  want to go shopping :P I have 2 pairs of maternity pants but I don't like them..

Anyways! I am 12 weeks! Yay for the last week of 1st trimester!!! 

11 weeks..only 203 days to go.. :)

So this picture was taken with my phone..i laid my phone flat and then put it against my chest and this is the view..I can't believe how big I am at 11 weeks. It's actually kind of scary lol.
I have had people ask me what I'm having, and although I now want it to be a surprise I still feel weird saying I don't know yet ..lol.
Oh well :)
Can't wait to meet this little bean!!

dont wanna know :)

I just read my last post and I laughed so hard lol..why was that so important to me that I had to rant?! lol..silly hormones.

Yesterday, I went to Steven's cousin Chelsea's Baby Shower..She's having a boy due May 18th. Steven's mom and I chipped in together and got her a big tub of stuff and then got her a gift certificate to go get her nails done. I should have taken pictures but..I forgot. I'll post some as soon as they are up on facebook!

So last night while I was laying in bed WIDE awake I was thinking..I don't think I want to know what this baby is. I knew with Sophia and I think it would be nice to get a nice surprise at the end of this. There are really no good surprises in life except this one. Maybe we aren't supposed to know..:P
I think I'm not going to find out.
Steven of course wants to find out but I don't think he will when we go in..at least I hope not...I don't want him to know before me!! lol

So that is my decision! I am NOT finding out!
:)

Rant?

Last night we went to one of Steven's coworker's daughter's birthday..that was a mouth full. And a majority knew I was pregnant, some knew how far along, but I got a lot of "OMG you're huge!!!!" Thank you. I love knowing that you think I am ginormous at 10 weeks..I can only imagine what you will think at 20 weeks or even 40.

Maybe I'm just hormonal, but I hate when people tell me what size I am. I know I am huge..I know my boobs are huge..please don't remind me. Thank you..

on a better note, I guess it's a good thing this little one had space to swim around! :)

What could it be??

So today I thought it would be fun to do some gender predictors..
2came out boy..1 came out girl..
But then I asked my Psychic friend and she says girl..
I feel like it could be girl.
I guess we will see come May!!

The word is out!!

We have officially told everybody in the world..well in facebook world :P

We finally were able to tell my family and Steven's family.

We told my mom a few days before I went to the doctor. 

 

She was completely shocked by it. My plan worked out very well. We have a drill of my dads so I told my mom to come pick it up after work. Well I got Sophia dressed and when my mom walked in she saw her shirt. She didn't get it at first. She looked at me and then at the shirt and then at me again. Lol she didn't finally understand until I gave her the look of "duh! get it" haha

She was super happy and excited! as you can tell from the picture! which is how we told my dad..through text! lol

then today we went to my in-laws. We walked in the door, Sophia sporting her "Big Sister in training" shirt. My father-in-law read it as "big sista" probably because he wasn't wearing his glasses lol. And I said "Get it?" and he said with a big smile "No" hahahahah.

Then my mother-in-law came downstairs and read it and then starting jumping up and down and was like "what really omg" haha

Way better reaction than last time :P

So it is out! Facebook knows! 

I do have fears tho, that this pregnancy won't last, only because of my previous loss. I know that it's normal to worry. And I hope and pray that this one makes it. It was soo cute and wiggly! I am soo in love. already. 

<3 

ribs of pain

So a few weeks ago, I got very sick. I was coughing extremely bad and it hurt! well I still have the cough and it is still bad just not painful. Last week while I was coughing, I felt a very very sharp pain in my ribs, as if they had broken. They started to feel better through out the week until yesterday. I tried closing the trunk door and pulled something. O M G!
I have never been in so much pain! I for sure thought I had broken them then. Well after talking to a few people I realized theres a lot more you can do to your ribs than just breaking them. So I was going to go to the UMC to see a doctor but I realized thats probably not the smartest idea since I am pregnant and everyone there will be sick. No bueno.
So I'm just going to schedule an appointment to see someone. That way I'm not stuck sitting in the waiting room for 3+  hours around sickies..ugh.
Until then I will be in pain. :(

Love at first sight..

About 3 weeks ago, I took a pregnancy test. It came out positive!

Was I in shock! I am completely and utterly excited!

My husband, Steven, was at work when I took the test. He didn't come home til around 7am the next morning. Sophia was already awake. I handed Sophia the pregnancy test and told her to bring it to daddy. 

He grabbed it from her and said "What the hell is this?!" LOL!! 

And then started laughing uncontrollably! LOL. I think he was in shock too haha! 

A few days ago, March 17, 2011, I went to my first doctors appointment. 

This is our newest family member! :) 

It was wiggling like crazy!!! 

I won't be able to see it again until April 14th. 

It can't come soon enough!

Anways....here are my stats!

I weigh: 131
have been REALLY nauseous and hungry! 

Normal blood pressure.

I am due October 19, 2011

and as of today I am 9 weeks and 3 days along!

YAY!

I am hoping that this little bean makes it all the way. I am already in love!